We all do it, I guess—behave like despicable monsters, and subsequently hate ourselves. Crazy, how the ones we love the most have to see us at our worst.
For what I am doing, I do not understand. For what I will to do, that I do not practice; but what I hate, that I do. ~ Romans 7:15
Jesus likes to remind me how much He loves me when I'm feeling awful about something I've done, or some horrid thing I've said.
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise. ~ Psalm 51:17
How wonderful is God, to love unloveable me! His grace is multi-purposeful, at the same time flooding my heart with reassurance of his love, and teaching me to extend the same undeserved forgiveness to those in my life who, like me, are occasionally overcome by their inner monsters.
But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. ~ Romans 5:8